Okay, so I’ve been diving deep into this whole astrology thing lately, and I stumbled upon this concept of North Node and South Node. My North Node is in Leo, and my South Node is in Aquarius, apparently. It’s supposed to represent your life’s purpose and karmic past, or something like that. Sounds kinda woo-woo, but I was curious, so I decided to see if it resonated with me at all.
Digging into My Nodes
First, I googled “Leo North Node Aquarius South Node” to get a basic understanding. From what I gathered, it’s about moving away from a detached, overly intellectual approach (Aquarius South Node) and embracing creativity, self-expression, and leadership (Leo North Node).
I thought about my life. I’ve always been the “observer,” the one analyzing things from the sidelines. Group projects? I’d be the one researching, organizing, making sure everything was logical and efficient. Stepping into the spotlight? Nope, not me. I was comfortable in the background, letting others take the lead.
The Experiment Begins
So, I decided to try something different. I wanted to see if I could consciously shift my energy towards my Leo North Node. Here’s what I did:
- Joined a public speaking class: Terrifying? Absolutely. But I figured it was the perfect way to push myself out of my comfort zone.
- Started a personal project: I’ve always wanted to write a fantasy novel, but I never thought I was “creative” enough. I decided to throw that limiting belief out the window and just start writing, even if it was terrible.
- Said “yes” to more social invitations: Instead of my usual hermit routine, I forced myself to go out, meet new people, and actually engage in conversations, even if it felt awkward.
The Messy Middle
It wasn’t easy. The public speaking class was a rollercoaster of anxiety and small victories. My first speech was a disaster. I stumbled over my words, forgot half of what I wanted to say, and generally felt like a complete idiot. But I kept going. Slowly, I started to get more comfortable, more confident. I even started to enjoy it a little (gasp!).
The novel? It’s still a work in progress. Some days, the words flowed effortlessly. Other days, I stared at a blank page for hours, feeling frustrated and inadequate. But I persisted. I reminded myself that it was about the process, not the perfection.
The social stuff? Also a mixed bag. Some interactions felt forced and awkward. Others were surprisingly fun and energizing. I realized that I actually enjoyed connecting with people, sharing ideas, and even being the center of attention sometimes.
The “Aha!” Moments
The biggest shift I noticed was in my mindset. I started to see myself differently. I wasn’t just the quiet, analytical observer anymore. I was capable of being bold, creative, and even a little bit dramatic. I started to embrace my individuality, my quirks, my passions.
I realized that my Aquarius South Node traits weren’t “bad.” They were just…overused. My analytical skills were still valuable, but I needed to balance them with the warmth, creativity, and courage of my Leo North Node. I needed to let that inner lion roar, even if it was just a little meow at first.
It’s still a journey, of course. I’m not suddenly a super confident, charismatic leader. But I’m learning to step into my power, to express myself authentically, and to embrace the spotlight, even if it’s just for a few minutes. And that, I think, is pretty cool, and I decided to share it with everyone.
